November 2009
24 posts
I need a break
3 days after it arrived, I finally felt like I had a window of time to activate my iPhone. Because Rod turned it on for me, I could not figure out right away how to turn it off so that the network could reset. The big obvious button wasn’t doing it.
While I’m finding the right button, Em starts tapping the keys on my laptop.
Frustrated, I yelled really, REALLY loud at her. Just...
October 2009
51 posts
Is there something preventing spammers from adding...
Or am I just a thought leader in that area?
Coincidence or luck?
That my husband’s PTO for the 3rd week in January was approved just hours after my post about not really being that thrilled about traveling.
"Choosy moms choose Jif."
piscesinpurple:
Bigger lies have been told in advertising, I’m sure, but this is the one most likely to induce in me a vicious reverse peristaltic wave.
NATURAL PEANUT BUTTER, PEOPLE. THE WAY JAH INTENDED.
Do you even know what’s in that creamy shit? No, you don’t. Because if you did you wouldn’t eat it.
Gah.
The fact that it’s “Moms” and not “Parents” brings...
Second Thoughts
I’m pretty sure I was in a manic state when I thought “HEY LET’S ALL GO TO SAN FRANCISCO IN JANUARY”.
Cuz right now the thought of packing, hauling everything a 23-month old needs to the airport and again to connecting flights and to transportation to hotel and to hotel room and every day sightseeing and the same process back home again, and not getting a break from her...
Weighing In...
Still fat.
In fact, I am a fat slob.
I’m mostly kidding - and I have a plan. I was all intent on doing strength training M W and F at 4 in the morning and either the elliptical or sleeping in (until 4:45!) on Tues and Thurs depending on whether I was on track with losing the pound a week I want to. I did this on Friday and then a project came up that I needed to spend those morning hours...
I love the stiffness I feel the day after strength...
In fact, it’s my second favorite kind of stiffness.
Hey-oh!
October of Change
Seven years ago, a lot changed in the 31 days of October.
On the 1st, I turned 23. I went to a home buyer education seminar that night. I lived in an apartment.
During the first ten days of the month, I looked for houses and found one that I loved. I wrote up a contract with my realtor.
On the 14th, I went on my first “real” business trip for the job I had started 5 months prior....
You know how I know women don't usually come to...
The array of sodas available did not include one diet variety.
Office Potluck!
Which means it is once again time for….OREO BALLS!
Just..just google it.
Tweet up costs....Postcards....Gifts
Is this twitter/tumblr or a sorority?
White shirt + Spaghetti Lunch + Meeting after work...
Surrogate father needed
Must be male, 65+
Must enthusiastically say “Hello!” when I call.
Must care whether I live or die.
20 years since San Francisco Earthquake?
Does that make anybody else feel old?
Also, this is kind of a thing with me.
yhf:
frageelaytwit:
Not all Midwesterners are alike any more than all Southerners are alike or all New Yorkers are alike.
I’d support your point but I’m not sure what it was. I can’t hear under all this corn.
I’d say I was tired of Oklahoma being portrayed as something like 19th Century Deadwood, but one of our major highways connecting Tulsa with a suburb was closed this morning....
I’m not asking to brag about my kid…but more because I’m worried about her. What if all she thinks about all day is the location of her jacket? What if her brain is on some sort of forever loop all day reminding herself not to forget her jacket? I don’t think I’ve modeled this particular behavior for her…I rarely wear a jacket or freak out if I forget it. It...
Question for parents or teachers
At what age would you expect a child to arrive at daycare at 730 a.m., place her jacket in a cupboard, not see it again, and then remind her parent that we should not forget her jacket when the parent arrives ten hours later?
Grandma is still in ICU…They tried moving her to a regular room but she got low on oxygen. They tried putting some sort of mask on her while she slept but she got freaked out with it on her face. She’s doing OK physically now but is really confused and agitated according to my mom. Mom sounded like she had a rough day - every bit as rough as the day I had after Dad’s...
Weighing In...
I gained a LOT of weight this week. Up 4.5 pounds from last week. Up about 10 pounds since Chicago. Up nearly 20 pounds since April.
I know it’s all my fault. But you can read any of my posts from the past week to see that I’ve been in a state of darkness, feeling precariously positioned in the world and also threatened by it. It doesn’t help that I feel like 95% of the...
Grandma’s in surgery for her hip.
Emerson was sent home with breathing problems.
Yeah, I’m really focused right now.
Grandma broke her hip
She’s almost 87 and will be getting surgery tomorrow in Wichita.
This occurs just ten days before the whole family was going to get together to celebrate Grandpa’s 90th birthday.
Load up on your Calcium/Vitamin D supplements, ladies.
This year….entirely crap except for getting to watch Emerson grow up more.
Knit your way to happiness? →
I heard this chick on NPR a few weeks ago. She kind of pissed me off - making it sound like people who take SSRI’s are looking for easy answers.
Here, it sounds like being depressed is linked to being separated from the family.
In highly industrialized westernized societies, women are twice as likely as men to suffer from depression; however, in societies where women contribute...
Not good at moderation
If I can’t obsess about something, I have to be indifferent.
If I’m not happy with something someone did, I have to feel an active hate toward him or her.
If I’m not watching every calorie, I’m eating nonstop.
If I’m not revealing every square inch of what my soul is feeling, I don’t say a word about it.
If I don’t feel love or acceptance from someone,...
Not enough time for myself this weekend.
If Em takes at least a two hour nap on both Saturday and Sunday, I feel a lot less homicidal.
She only slept for an hour each day.
I need some time when nobody is screaming at me.
I need time where I don’t feel like I have to be in a state of catlike readiness.
Loading up on antidepressants....
It’s time for my weekly phone call with Mom.
Time to find out how Big Retail Employer has screwed her over this week. Trying to figure out if there’s anything I can/should do to help her or just let her live her life.
No more parties
I had a great time tonight. Nobody left screaming or crying. I’m not dreading seeing any of them at the office on Monday. None of my church friends did anything to offend my work friends.
But it took way too much energy to do this. Aside from an hour I allowed myself to cross stitch and mess around on the internet, I was working. Raking/sweeping leaves, trimming bushes, cleaning the...
Inside an OCD parent's head
People with brains like mine think five steps ahead of you and remember five times what you remember.
It doesn’t make me brilliant. Because most of it is hardly worth thinking about or remembering. But it does give me an edge in some things, like professionally. People trust me to do things because they know nothing will fall through the cracks.
Then I had a child. When there is a life...
I invited my whole office over for a party...
There’s no way I’m cool enough to pull this off.
Damn you, Glee
It’s been almost a week now since I watched the episode where Kurt became the football team’s kicker.
Can’t hear any of my own thoughts over the blaring “IF YOU LIKED IT THEN YOU SHOULDA PUTTA RING ON IT” created by my brain’s auditory center.
Another round
Apparently my doctor’s office and my insurance company are just fine passing me back and forth in the “No, you need approval from THEM first” loop.
Guess suicide is cheaper for both of them than paying out to a grief counselor.
Narcissism or just paranoia?
To be absolutely sure that at least some people were put on this planet to raise my blood pressure.
Serenity. Now.
I've never called myself pro-choice before right...
But after reading Oklahoma House Bill 1595 (Word format), I guess I do see the need for these protections.
Nothing else has ever made me feel more like the white haired old men in this state think of me as property.
Things on my desk
John Locke action figure
Red stapler
Dunder Mifflin “World’s Best Boss” mug
I like to watch TV and movies.
Weighing In...
Getting this one done early:
Today: 160
Change from last week: +2
Change from Sept 4: -.5
Dinner out last Thursday, birthday cake, travel stress Friday & Saturday, home alone sadness on Sunday, blood donation recuperation yesterday.
It always seems like there is an excuse to eat poorly. I’m having a party this weekend. Grandpa’s 90th birthday in 2 weeks. Halloween. More...
West Wing Wednesday
Gov. Ritchie: My view of this is simple: we don’t need a Federal Department of Education telling us our children have to learn Esperanto, they have to learn Eskimo poetry. Let the states decide, let the communities decide on health care, on education, on lower taxes, not higher taxes. Now, he’s going to throw a big word at you - “unfunded mandate.” He’s going to say...
Pet Peeve
When I write someone an email consisting of several paragraphs, and they include my original text in their reply and write a sentence or two between each of my paragraphs, either indented or in a different color.
It’s fine for work-related email but it irritates me when someone does that in a personal email. It conveys to me the idea that they don’t really have the desire to make...
Why are people suddenly telling me that kids...
monkeyfrog:
biorhythmist:
entropyas:
Does the CDC have its own agenda?
Sure. Their agenda:
Is to collaborate to create the expertise, information, and tools that people and communities need to protect their health – through health promotion, prevention of disease, injury and disability, and preparedness for new health threats.
CDC’s Mission
Who are the people who want to put your kids as...
Why are people suddenly telling me that kids...
What is their agenda?
Does the CDC have its own agenda? Are vaccinations the opiate of the masses?
I have seriously spent too much time the past few nights reading about this.
Somebody posted to my church forum last night a link to a doctor who wasn’t going to give his kids the H1N1 vaccine.
I sent a response saying that known risks of flu death are greater to me than the rare risk of...
So what do we think of FlashForward?
I alternate between focusing on:
horrible dialog, heavy-handed flashbacks, and FBI agents missing patterns that real FBI agents wouldn’t have been stupid enough to miss
a general plot that has me hooked
I TOOK NYQUIL AND NOW I WANT TO STAY UP LATE AND...
I hate you, Expedia
For being so brilliant.
I reserved a room this morning and saw that I had until 4p.m. to cancel with no penalty. Moments later, I was given an invitation to stay with some family that I have in town where I’m going.
I did not notice that it said that I had to cancel by 4p.m. October 1.
So I would have had to go in and cancel the reservation BEFORE I made the reservation.
You know some...
Hey, Amanda.
frageelaytwit:
I’m notoriously inept at coming up with creative birthday wishes on the Tumblr, but didn’t want today to pass without saying that I hope your day is filled with love, laughter, and awesome eats. I’m glad you were born. xo
That is very sweet! And my day *was* filled with all of those things.
It might be the two glasses of Festivus Wine I...
But I love you guys. And I love my life.
The past 30 years have led me to right here. I love my husband. I love my daughter. I love my job. I love my friends. I love my church. I love my Youth & Government kids.
I wouldn’t change a minute of how I lived it.
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Weighing In...
Today: 158
Change from last week: -2
Change from Sept 4: -2.5
Too busy to eat! Plus I’m trying to not be such a fatty at home - to boost morale for @toldorknown and to set a better example for Emerson.
The above statement of course excludes this, which we’ll work in after the Cheddar Bay Biscuits.
Thanks everybody for the birthday love!
You have no idea how much I needed to be spoiled by you guys today. This is my first birthday without my dad, who strangely enough passed away 6 months ago today. He always made a big deal about my birthday, especially since I left home. He’d call early in the morning and play a medley of song excerpts containing the word “birthday”. He’d send a card in the mail. ...
Happy birthday to the lovely and wonderful...
jaydensmommie:
I hope your day is equally lovely and wonderful. I’m really glad I’ve found you here and had a chance to know a little of your life. From what I’ve seen you are pretty freakin awesome.
That is so sweet! The day has been fantastic so far!
