What did we do before toys you could hook up to your computer via USB so you could give your child the impression that this talking dog likes the same things that she likes? I tossed many-a toy dog aside when I was a kid because it didn’t know my name and it liked to eat grapefruit.
Sorry I have to write this down so it seems less real
I had a series of awful dreams last night….One was basically me being trapped with others in a nuclear meltdown type situation.
The second one I forgot other than it just making me uneasy.
The third one was the most vivid. If I were good at writing dialog, I would turn it into a screenplay. Or I may have swiped it from something I have already seen but forgot about. The first part of it was from the perspective of a death row inmate. I was in this guy’s body. I was about to be put to death for crimes that I recalled to be misunderstandings or self defense. The method of execution was to paralyze/put to sleep and then place in a pool, where I would eventually drown. I didn’t want to drown. I used willpower to stay awake for two hours and then for after the 2nd injection for another 2 hours….This was the criteria for cruel/unusual punishment which made me no longer eligible for the death penalty After avoiding the death penalty, I was eventually released and was happy/proud.
The second part of it was the same series of events from the perspective of all of the people that had been killed. Many people. And many more murders in addition to the ones that the police knew about. And after being released after the failed death penalty attempts, he killed a lot more people.
Bad dreams really affect my outlook for the rest of the day. I have a lot of crap in my head.
Totally….That’s why I do my best to live my life in a such a way that if there is a God that hopefully I’m not displeasing Him/Her/Other too much. I like to think that I have never made the conscious decision to reject the idea of God - Rather it is just my cynical, verify-everything personality. I’d like to think that such a God would be loving and understanding of this, and also would look at my intentions of what I think the right thing to do or say at any time is rather than subscribing to any particular creed. My Unitarian minister once said that whenever we are faced with any sort of choice, make the decision that seems like it is the decision that is most filled with love. That’s my religion, and hopefully that pleases any deity.
Dropped off Em at daycare this morning. There was an absolutely adorable boy about a month younger than Em. He brightly said Hi! to us as we walked in the door and gave Em a big hug. Em stood there reluctantly with an “Is it over yet?” look on her face. We went over to a friends’ house last weekend and when we left, their 19-month-old gave Em a hug as we left. Em pretty much ignored it, but just had to hug the friends’ cats multiple times before we got out the door. She interacts with adults just fine and exhibits and recognizes a variety of emotions so I’m not (terribly) worried about Autism-spectrum stuff. She just seems to lack the peer-to-peer social skills that kids her age and younger seem to have. And why wouldn’t she? The only people Rod and I really talk to are each other. Rod doesn’t do much interacting with others in front of Emerson outside our house. I take her with me to places like church….I interact with others but promptly take on the role of listener/observer. I’m starting to realize that none of this is bad at all….You’re supposed to feel more comfortable at home than in the outside world. And in the outside world I wish more people would listen instead of talk. So in short she’s absolutely perfect and I’m probably making her the exact way I want her to be and the worst that can happen is that she ends up like me, and I’m pretty OK with who I am.
“Paula is almost 4 years old now, but she started speaking late. Speech therapy over the last year and a half has helped tremendously, to the point where you can’t tell she even had a problem, which is awesome. However, now we need to know how much longer to continue with the therapy program, and one of the things the doctors want to rule out is Apraxia of Speech. This is very unlikely, but we need to make sure, thus the MRI.”—